Monday, January 25, 2010
This bike seemed oddly evocative of my mental state this morning. It's a balmy 52 degrees and everything is coated with a slick of water- half dirty slushy snowmelt, and half condensation on every surface that's been frozen for weeks. Despite the warmth, I didn't ride today. Partly because it's supposed to rain buckets this afternoon and partly because I just didn't have the energy. Not physical energy, but the mental toughness needed to deal with riding in traffic.
I wish I didn't feel like riding my bike was like going into battle. It would be nice not to feel like I had to be contantly vigilant to avoid getting hit by someone on their cellphone or just not paying attention. I wish I didn't have to ride in the middle of the lane and piss massholes off in order to keep them from buzzing me. I wish I wish I wish.....
Just couldn't face it today.